stop.

Spinning spinning...spinning, the world is spinning, everybody around is spinning...busy, running, on the go, in overdrive, to and fro...

Then it will...

STOP.

in an instant.

And it turns upside down, shakes like an earthquake and the aftermath is almost unfathomable, unimaginable-- can't be real?

The last three days have been filled with grief, for which I've kept mostly to myself, thats okay.  I've have somberly and prayerfully carried on.  Feeling a gaping hole for the loss of a dear friend of mine.  A friend that is part of the wonderful, crazy, woven tapestry of my life.  I can't hardly feel sorry for her, for I know she has passed through the glorious gates of Heaven...mostly feeling- grieving for her precious family- their loss. Feeling grateful for the precious gift of having the pleasure of knowing, working with, laughing with, having some most memorable experiences of my life with and crossing paths with Micah Hogan for the last 17 years.  Feels like...my heart has been rubbed against a cheese grater.  Feels shredded and wounded.  I don't even want to imagine what it feels like for her husband, parents and children.

The world lost one of the most beautiful girls on Friday.  

A mama to two young kids.  

A wife.  

A young, beautiful, shining light for God.  

As I've said many times- it's God's plan, not for us to understand or question.  For we know everything has its season and all of those experiences (good and bad) are meant for us to grow in His Word and in our faith.  Still doesn't lessen the pain of a loss, the realization and reminder of how short, sweet and fragile life is.

Stop.

Realize. Treasure. Remember. Say. Do. Don't wait. Cherish. 

For there is no promise of tomorrow.

 

Comments

[Suezi Gurzi]

I clicked on your post from facebook to tell you that your picture was sure a pretty one of you...little did i know that you are grieving from a huge loss! I am so sorry my friend and pray that your precious memories of your friend Micah get you through a very sad time for you.
xoxo

[Nicole]

Mmm. I'm sad to say that I can relate. I lost my best friend four years ago in a horrible car crash. Momma to two little boys who were also in the car with her, but were not hurt. Cheese grater. Totally. The only thing that gives me peace is knowing that she loved Jesus and it was well with her soul. I try to treasure the memories instead of letting them melt me into a puddle.

{big, big hugs}

My One Little Word for 2012 is NOW, as in "Realize. Treasure. Remember. Say. Do. Don't wait. Cherish." and just be all here. Tomorrow is promised to no one...

{more hugs}

[MargieH]

Loving all your posts :) But had to STOP and write how sorry I am about your friend, Micah. Hugs to you and prayers of strength to her family to get through this most difficult time.