Happy. ness.
My camera battery life (the spare already died ;( ) is about 25 shots...sad, but the 25 shots I snapped yesterday pretty much sum up life right now. Happy.
I've enjoyed these three more this summer than I can imagine...these images captures it perfectly. No fake smiles...(although, yes, I have plenty in and amongst those 25 shots) ...just happy.
I played with some of my PS actions to tweak the mood of the shots...they scream summer!
As of today, the girls are off to Aunt Jenny's for a couple of nights and it's just me and the boys.
Big.
Sigh.
{relief}
I'm sure they are as happy to be free of me as I am to hear...what? What is that? ...nothing. ;) Girls will be girls...and these two beauties are like any two preteen sisters about 2 1/2 years apart...BICKER FEST!!! Constant. Too much time together this summer? Though as much as they "think" they annoy each other every moment of the day...I hear the good times. Happy. Playing school. Staying up late just talking {giggling}. Laughing their heads off about pretty much nothing. Pedicures, Swimming, Dancing, singing, dress in weird concoctions of clothing, jewels, scarves and heels. They had the choice of spending time alone at Aunt Jenny's...and they chose to go together. They don't know what a bond they are building...but I do. I love my sister more than the world. It's the most special relationship I have. BFF. And I don't use that term loosely, trust me.
So it's just me and the big guy...
All 32 lbs of him. Super stud :)
It breaks my heart...that we only have a few weeks together and then life will change. I make no excuses for being pretty much behind on EVERYTHING. I want to soak up every moment of this fading summer.
Cash is so excited about the baby sitter...I hope he loves it. He's going tomorrow...for 7 hours. I have so much to get done --the compilation of weeks of work that I can't seem to find the time for. Sewing orders, photography, IU stuff, special project stuff, blog sneaks (IU) and tons more. I'm going to squeeze as much as possible of it into 7 hours. Grandma...do you have plans Friday!?
As I've mentioned before...I've spent the last (nearly) year sort of looking for myself. Looking for a niche to completely immerse myself rather than piddling and paddling about...though I have enjoyed experimenting, being creative in every way and the journey. Going back to school is that, for me...myself, found. But it's so much more too. I know I will love it. I've always wanted to spread my wings and take some art classes...and now I get to!!! I know it will be a series of aha moments. I feel like it will bring me full circle...creatively speaking. I know that it is something for me, yet it's so much more about my family than just selfish reasons. As scary as it is...there's a perfect calm about it too. God has given me the pieces to create myself...and that is what I will do. I saw this quote sometime back...how perfect...
Hi Jana, I just wanted to tell you that your post struck a chord with me bc a couple of years ago, I went thru the exact same thing. It is scary at first but when you let go of the fear & uncertainty, you will find peace. And thankfully - Fulfillment! God be with you on your journey and remember to enjoy the process. TFS such a personal struggle.
Posted by: Shere | July 29, 2010 at 09:54 AM
Shere-- thanks so much for your comment, taking time to post the encouragement! Feel silly to lay my life out for strangers but its so nice when folks can relate :) Great to hear that you have made that step in your life too and are experiencing a positive outcome! God bless your heart!
Posted by: jannawilson | July 30, 2010 at 04:22 PM